Should I do this? Or will it be too risky?

So im 14 and lesbian and I REALLY want to be in one of those LGBT collabs on YouTube. I havent told my parents and dont think I ever will. But my Mother stalks me on pretty much everything I do! I have 558 subscribers on my channel, so I was thinking of making a totally new account and auditioning for a LGBT collab. Should I? Or would it risk my mom finding out about me? Im not gonna tell anyone irl that im on it, except my 2 bffs who I came out to. I just really want to be able to connect and talk with others going through the same thing as me :)